Holding on to the hope

“Let us hold unswervingly to the hope we profess, for he who promised is faithful.” --Hebrews 10:23

It's been a few days since I posted last, not because I don't have anything to say, but because I'm completely buried under deadlines. I've got both a major deadline (for a book) and a minor deadline (for a report) on the same day next week. It's enough to make you dig in your heels and get to work!

I'm working on other things right now, but this struggle is still right there at the front of my mind all the time. I've already experienced some of the fire that I know that I must walk through to become the person God wants me to be for whomever he decides is the right mate for me.

I started talking to two different people this week. Both seemed like really nice guys. One is very educated and has a pretty important job. The other is less educated, but with a cool job. Both seemed like fun--in very different ways--people to be around. Until I mentioned that I'm a very devoted Christian. And then both guys fell right off the face of the earth. Hmmm. Wonder what they were after?

At first, I was disheartened by the whole situation. But then Hebrews 10:23 was delivered to me through an acquaintance. Isn't it cool how God gets his message to you when you need it the most? I love this verse because it talks about HOPE. And it reminds us that God keeps his promises.

When I read this verse, it renews my hope that someday I'll have that perfect person in my life. And when I have hope for the future, then I can muster the courage to go through everyday alone. And since I know that God keeps his promises, I know that this struggle is not to be without reward. He promised me eternal life. He didn't promise life on this earth would be easy.

Maybe it will turn out that I do spend the rest of my life alone. I won't ever be completely comfortable with this earthly life is this is how God plans to play it out. But I can be truly happy, even alone. Because God promises that I'll have eternal life. How can you ever stay depressed for too long knowing that?

So today, I sing God's praises. He's a loving and faithful God, and while I don't have everything I want, I do have everything I need and I know that one day I'll sit at his feet and hear the soothing timbre of his voice. And that's enough.